Cette vie est tellement! In English...

Life is so much, as the title says. The past two months have been a total hell and I really expected things to get easier for me once my guy was here, boy was I wrong…

As much as he often annoyed me before, I really miss that sweet caring sensitive guy I used to have. I don’t know exactly what happened while he was in Ohio. I do know he didn’t come back the same. That really sucks! I don’t know what I should do. I have tried talking to him but it seems to go right in one ear and out the other.

Maybe, just maybe my name is more than a pseudo name. Maybe I am supposed to be the mistress the one that only has the good times with “someone else’s man”. I do not think I am cut out for all this relationship WORK. Yes, I said work.

I found that I really do love him, at least the “him” I had before. This new more; rude crude dude is not the man I realized I loved over the course of the past year… HOW DO I GET HIM BACK!!!